The Anxiety Diaries Volume 19: My Anxiety Is…

On New Years Day last month I found some inspiration to do further creative writing. That morning I began to put together a poem, I shared it with someone I hold dear and no one else. I then wrote a second poem and vowed to write one poem a week for the entire year.
This past week when I was writing my one poem I started a piece about my anxiety and it inspired this post. This is not what I wrote for the week, however, it is what I wrote for this post.

My anxiety is waking up and not knowing what I am worried about
My anxiety is sleeping in until the late afternoon
My anxiety is a force that could drown a fish
My anxiety is something I believed for a long time made me not normal
My anxiety is often debilitating
My anxiety is affecting my relationships
My anxiety is affecting my physical health
My anxiety is tough
My anxiety is why I cry in bathroom stalls
My anxiety is NOT uncommon
My anxiety is NOT what defines me
My anxiety is the topic of this monthly post
My anxiety is often what I am most afraid will take over my life
My anxiety is what keeps me from seeing my friends and partners
My anxiety is the reason you cannot get a hold of me
My anxiety is what keeps me up at night
My anxiety is why I take medication
My anxiety is why I am ashamed that I take medication
My anxiety is often the cause of my bad skin
My anxiety is often the cause of my poor diet
My anxiety is not something I take lightly
My anxiety is something I CAN overcome most days
My anxiety is a weight on my soul
My anxiety is a roadblock on my path to success
My anxiety is why I space off and stare into the distance
My anxiety is why I clench my jaw and fiddle with my rings
My anxiety is why I talk so much or so little
My anxiety is something I should reach out for more support about


There are many things that ‘my anxiety is’ but the most important this is that it is NOT the definition of who I am or who I will become. What is YOUR anxiety?