Quarantine has been hard for everyone but I thought it may be easier for me? Not much in my routine has changed it seems and I look for excuses to stay home. Many are finding time to do the things they want to do and yet I am finding myself plagued with questions of anxiety and emotion based values.
I am overwhelmed with questions and I feel as though I am not finding the answers at the same pace. But, such is life. Below you will find some of these questions.
“Why can’t I just be normal?”
This is brought to my attention by the normalization of those who do not suffer from mental health issues.
“Am I enough?”
This question is more of a back and forth of whether I am enough for myself, my partner or the world around me.
“Does anyone else feel this way?”
It can be beneficial to reach out to your support system when you think this, I of course forget to take my own advice quite often.
“Am I going to feel like this forever?”
In short, no I am not.
“Does everyone hate me?”
In short, no.
“Why does it seem as though others can find peace in their minds and hearts and I cannot?”
It is difficult to be medicating for anxiety when it appears that more people can mediate and not need to medicate. These are stemmed feelings from medications for mental health getting a bad reputation.
“Is everyone else asking themselves these questions?”
“Am I trying hard enough?”
“Am I trying at all?”
“Is it okay to take ‘day off’?”
“What would my dad say about this?”
“Am I making the right choice here?”
“Is it my diet?”
“Will exercise help?”
“If I were to reach out to a friend or partner would that help?”
“Am I an emotional burden?”
I ask myself these and many more (slightly more specific to my situations) questions all the time. I know the answers are within me but I allow them to overwhelm me and take over. I think it is healthy to ask questions so long as you are seeking answers and not asking for the sake of asking.
Reach out to your friends during quarantine, take a nap, take a walk and cuddle your pets.
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